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   How many times have you been looked in the eye by a hero and dictated to about doing the right thing and then felt so ashamed because you've been bad. A defining moment in my life was at about 11years old when I saw a big kid I admired, smoking.   I was so let down.   He was no one to me and even though I only knew him for a week, it bothered me.   Since that time I have come across hundreds of those let downs,  the majority of them were by those I had never met.  It is a role model thing. Don’t get me wrong I’ve let a few down myself but as time has gone by I have reckoned with and I daily try to let go of my faults. And when I can’t, I say, I am guilty too.

What about this new thing about everyone accepting responsibility. Just a few short years ago when someone, ( only a few took responsibility,) transgressed they  stood up and said, "I’m sorry" it was most often right before they lost what they had. They took responsibility and took the punishment and slowly went away.   The majority of those caught just legalized or lied their way out.

Now we have a responsibility push coalition and   Jesse Jackson is again the leader who stands so proud and so responsible in front of America and lays it all out. I love my child, I take responsibility, I love my wife, I take full responsibility, forgive me I'm human.   All this before anyone even knows he's been bad.    Well it seems he gets more human everyday as the press looks a little deeper.  Now as with Clinton, Jessie had my vote at one time, no more hes just one of those, "you go right on believing those lying eyes kind of guys".    

    I will never forget the time I was complaining to my supervisor about a co-worker taking two weeks of   unworked for vacation.   My supervisor looked at me and said, "is that so,  the only one I know of who has taken any unworked for vacation time,    is you".     Yup,  I cheated him for a  a day and was caught with my pants down.  That was almost 20 years ago and I don't take what doesn't belong to me anymore.   It is just to humiliating.

    I'm trying to think about this, is it OK to break into Jesse Jackson house and take back our support, or would that be wrong.

As for the nuns and the priest is that better than little boys.  Oh wow its everywhere, where have all the cowboys gone?